Updated: Oct 13
As I was sitting on a plane in the Detroit Airport, better known as DTW, people were going to their assigned seats and getting as comfortable as possible to take off for a trip to England. I met a well dressed woman who looked as if she was in her thirties but after talking with her, I realized that she was actually in her late fifties with two children who just became adults. She was dressed in a navy blue slack suit with a white blouse. She could have been mistaken as a stewardess. As a matter of fact, at first glance I thought she was a stewardess. On second glance she was preparing to take the seat next to me for the twelve hour trip. She was placing her luggage in the upper compartment section and stayed standing to request a pillow and blanket before take off. I had brought my own pillow and blanket on the plane, so I didn't have a need to request such. When we were both settled in for our lengthy trip, we became acquainted. Her name was Sarah. We talked about everything from children to religion.
Following are some of the stories that Sarah related to me. I was all ears without any comments and if I did have comments, I managed to keep them to myself for fear that she would stop in the middle of her stories.
After the plane took off and introductions were completed, we started to talk, really talk. What Sarah told me took up almost the rest of the trip when we weren't eating or snacking. When we became tired, we took turns napping, if not at the same time. However, during the flight the stories really seemed to come together.
I Never Thought
I never thought what it meant to have Jesus Christ as my Lord and Savior neither did I think about what I am in Christ Jesus, until a few years ago. I have read the Epistles of John and Paul and what they said about our description but I just did not associate it with myself, Sarah said. Probably because I originally didn't consider that they were writing about me, a future person. Then one day the scales were taken off my eyes and the plugs out of my ears. As the scriptures in Hebrew 5:12-6:5 (KJV) says:
“...when for the time ye ought to be teachers,
ye have need that one teach you again which
be the first principles of the oracles of God; and
are become such as have need of milk, and not
of strong meat. For every one that useth milk is
unskilful in the word of righteousness: for he is a
babe. But strong meat belongeth to them that
are of full age, even those who by reason of use
have their senses exercised to discern both good
and evil. Therefore leaving the principles of the
doctrine of Christ, let us go on unto perfection; not
laying again the foundation of repentance from
dead works, and of faith toward God. Of the
doctrine of baptisms, and of laying on of hands,
and of resurrection of the dead, and of eternal
judgement. And this will we do, if God permit. For
it is impossible for those who were once enlightened,
and have tasted of the heavenly gift, and were made
partakers of the Holy Ghost, and have tasted the
good word of God, and the powers of the world to
Even though I had been saved and filled with the Holy Ghost in my late teenage years, I continued to live by my senses instead of partaking of the absolute Devine Nature of Jesus Christ. I did not take hold of my inheritance. I did not steady the Word. I did not socialize with God fearing, God saved Christians. I did not know the Word, so consequently I did not live the Word. I lived like my so called friends around me. I also got married and my husband and children became my life until “the divorce”.
Years later, during the divorce, (that was dragged out for 15 years) I found myself hungry for the Word. I attended a Unitarian Church where the pastor did in fact give decent sermons about getting along with your fellow man. I suppose that's what I needed at the time. As I look back, he never preached or taught about Jesus or any other specifics from the Bible. Now, I understand 2 Corinthians 6:14, “Be not unequally yoked with unbelievers: for what fellowship hath righteousness with unrighteousness? And what communion hath light with darkness?”
Again, I began to thirst and could not find or did not realize that that was the Holy Spirit within me calling and urging me to have a closer relationship with the Master. At the time, I did not understand. I immersed myself in work. Whenever, I went to court and stood in front of the Judge for the divorce, I would feel an ache in the middle of my stomach. I didn't realize then that there was a light shining from me and that the Holy Spirit was telling me that evil was performing its darkness and destruction, even withchcraft in my divorce case. I was taken to court every other week to answer a summons of one sort or another. Mostly for more money. The Judge always ruled in my ex-husband's and his lawyer's favor. Not only in my case but in whatever other case that this particular attorney had in front of him. I lost all custody of my children who at the time were three and five, without proof that I was not a fit parent. I had to pay child support and alimony, even though my ex husband made a lot more money than I did, although I was not working at the time. Still, I did not follow the breadcrumbs that the Holy Spirit was dropping for me. I just knew that I had lost my children and that I did not do the things that other people did or the things that my ex husband said that I did. I did not beat my children. I did not go to bars. I did not attend the functions that others attended, etc... Even in high school, I did not have an interest in attending worldly functions.
I got a job teaching in the public schools. Now, I had to get up at 4 or 5 am, be on the road no later than 6:00 am for my hour commute and that depended on whether or not there was snow on the ground. I had to be at work by 7:15 or 7:30am, depending on the location of the building. I would go through my routine day at work, then turn around go home, change clothes, fix dinner, clean house, go to bed then do it all over again the next day. This continued until my mother became so ill with dementia that my father placed her in a home. I would leave work and go directly to the convalescent home to be with my mother. My days turned into 17 to 18 hour days. I would leave my house at 6am and would not get to bed until 1am. This oftentimes, relieved my dad who would be at the home day and night by her side. I never saw my other siblings there visiting. Never did I hear my Dad say, so and so just left or visited today. So I believe they chose not to visit mom at the home. This continued until my mom passed.
Finally I retired and decided to move out of state. I was going to take Dad with me, but during my trip to check things out, he passed. On the urgings of whom I thought was a friend, I packed up my two bedroom house, stored my belongings and headed to the person's house. I later found out that she lived with her daughter and daughter's three children. I wound up sharing her bedroom. Almost two weeks passed when I got the urge to find myself a place to live. Since I did not know the area I asked her to help me find an apartment. She at first introduced me to “A Place for Mom”. She told me that they would help me find an apartment. I didn't know any better and believed her until she took me to one of their apartment complexes. Then I also saw an advertisement on TV. It was then that I realized that it was housing for senior citizens. Well, I may have been retired but I did not have the age like she did. Besides, after visiting the place, I immediately said to her, “I don't like this. This is not the place for me.” She looked at me like she had just ate something unpalatable. She took me to another apartment complex that looked like it was more to my liking. I accepted an apartment at that complex to later find out that it was a haven for gays, lesbians, bisexuals and no telling what else. It was too late for me to get out of the contract and I definitely was not going to pay double the rent to move out early. So I endured.
During my endurance, one night I heard voices on the other side of the wall and originally thought nothing of it until the night I had a dream that I was wrestling with an evil spirit. When I woke up the Holy Spirit had placed in me that I was in the midst of spiritual warfare. I didn't know why it was directed at me. Isaiah 41:10 (NIV) became real to me:”Fear thou not, for I am with thee; be not dismayed, for I am thy God; I will strengthen thee; yea, I will help thee; yea, I will uphold thee with the right hand of my righteousness.”
From the start of this evil, I did not feel fear but at the same time because I had not read the Word, I did not know exactly what to do when I felt like a thousand pins and needles were being stuck into my body or smelling strange smells in my apartment. At one time it felt like 10,000 needles were being stuck into my left leg. During this time, I knew enough to plead the Blood of Jesus. I also started saying, “In the name of Jesus, I send this back to you.” One night I heard a woman say, “Ouch!” When I sent the pricking back. I heard her ask her companion if he felt it. I didn't hear what he said but the next day she made it a point to physically come out of her apartment to say hello to me, even though at first I acted as if I did not hear her. This lady walked out of her apartment and bodily stood in front of me to make sure I heard her. One evening, the Holy Spirit warned me that these evil ones wanted to kill me. That night I felt the urge to go to bed with a knife under my pillow.Which I did. However, I thought of Psalms 5:12 (KJV), “For thou, Lord, wilt bless the righteous; with favor wilt thou compass him as with a shield.” The very next morning, I received a phone call from my step sister who is older than me and in some twenty odd years never, ever, ever called me. Guess what? She called me. She did not say, “Hello.” She opened with, “Are you alright?” I immediately knew that she knew something.
Everyday, I would stay out of the apartment and go to the park with my puppy. At night when I was asleep and during the day while I was out “they” would enter my apartment. This made Psalms 27:1 real for me, “The Lord is my light and my salvation; whom shall I fear? The Lord is the strength of my life; of whom shall I be afraid?” Things were and still are stolen out of my apartment. Stuff was and maybe still is, placed in my food. It got so bad that even now I only purchase items that come individually. Many times, I would observe my lesbian younger sister standing at a distance on a balcony of another apartment observing me as if I could not see her or maybe she just did not care. I would hear her voice along with her unique cough through the walls of the place next to my apartment giving directions to other evil ones as to what to do to me and my belongings. Maybe she thought that just because she was using evil, that she and her associates dominated the life of God's child. Mat. 10:36 (KJV) says, “And a man's foes shall be they of his own household.”
While living at this complex, I saw my one of my older brothers and his wife drive by. Another time, I saw my eldest brother who happens to be blind wave at me from a car that drove by me in the complex's parking lot; someone had to tell him that I was standing outside near by. Talk about thinking that your family is in on this evilness! When I moved from that apartment, I gave all my newly acquired furniture to Habitat For Humanity and the Goodwill. Everything else was packed up and placed in storage.
For about a year, I drove around the USA. I was traveling to decide where I wanted to spend my retirement years. I knew it had to have warm weather year around. I stayed in one place probably no longer than a week. During this time period, I was followed everywhere I went. These people checked into the same hotels that I did, pulled into the same gas stations and insisted on following me into the lavatories. Psalms 27:3, “Though an host should encamp against me, my heart shall not fear: though war should rise against me, in this will I be confident.” One evening, while traveling, I pulled into a seven-eleven to use the facilities. I looked around and suddenly the lot was full with about 50 cars. No one could get in or out. I sat in my car for about 30 minutes and watched. As long as I sat there they stayed. I called the police and when the police came, instantly the cars cleared out. The gas station emptied out and no one drove up to a pump. I observed a few cars and trucks go across the street and park. This did not concern me. I thanked the policeman for coming and told him that I had never seen a station clear out so fast. The policeman chuckled.
What Was Meant For Evil, God Turned For Good
Sarah said, “This experience brought me closer to the Master. No! It brought me to the Master. I repented, started reading the Bible, praying and realized that I am the righteousness of God. Evil still tries to deceive, steal and kill me in whatever way that they think they can. I have moved into different apartments in different states. The evil ones have followed me to these states and to each apartment, but now I know (I really know) that I am a new creation and have authority, dominion, and power over all evil spirits. I am a joint heir with Jesus Christ (I have all authority just like Jesus after His resurrection). I am the righteousness of God through faith in Jesus and I have the light of the Holy Spirit living within me".
Job and Sarah
The trials of Job is a perfect example of Sarah's transition. Job was tried through the circumstances of his life, just like Sarah's trials. Behind every circumstance, every situation, every trial, there is a definite reason. Man lives in two worlds simultaneously. We live in the natural world with flesh, bones and blood. Man also lives in a spiritual world. This is just as real as the materialistic world. Job's trials were in both the spiritual as well as the natural. His trials came so fast that before he could overcome one another confronted him. But, Job never lost his faith. Job did not charge God, as a matter of fact, he had confidence in God. Job raised the shield of faith before the onslaught of Satan.
Sarah became stronger in the Lord. Her faith became strong, she started fasting, praying and seeking the Lord. Her trials brought her to her knees before the Lord. Sarah's faith was raised. Sarah also realized that the Lord has something heavenly for her to do and Satan is trying to keep her from her destiny that's written in her book by God. As the righteousness of God in Christ, Sarah put her trust fully in God, our Redeemer and saw God's hand of restoration and blessing come into her circumstances.
God always loved man. However, man disobeyed God therefore, trials, tests, pain, suffering and tragedy entered into man's life. Since God's relationship to man is one of love, if we trust and obey God then we must look behind the scenes for a hidden reason when our circumstances become unbearable. Man does not live in one world at a time, we live simultaneously in two worlds. We live in the natural world as human: flesh, blood and bones. Man also lives in a spirit or spiritual world. Our trials take place in both of these worlds.
In conclusion, when we transition, we come to new beginnings but it only happens at the end. Many times when things are changing in our lives, we try extremely hard to keep continuities going. We depart from our old then return. The transition cycle is a circular process in the journey of life. We may leave the flow of our main life for a while and then come back and around to our new beginning. We consistently go through changes in life. Sarah experienced a transition cycle and is still in the cycle. Sarah's transition is not complete but she can now look forward to an ending because she is victorious. She can look at the place she's in right now and start to prepare for another life transition. Sarah is becoming stronger in the Lord. She has learned to use her God given weapons of warfare as well as clothe herself in the armor of God. Sarah wishes that she had known all of this before, but so be it. She now knows and understands how to use her God given weapons. She wishes that others could understand what they have in God and what Jesus did for them on the cross. Her plans are to teach this to other believers so that they are not caught off guard by the accuser.
Book: God's Victorious Army